This week I suffered a personal setback in regards to my application for the degree course I wanted to start this year. After sitting down with the prospectus, a notebook and a calculator I realized that the total monthly fees are going to be higher than I first thought and will be way out of my budget. My heart fell in to my feet when I realized this and that night I tossed and turned till 5 am, mind churning, feeling deflated and disappointed and angry at myself for not realizing sooner.
The following morning, after beating myself up over it all night and feeling pretty exhausted and low-spirited I turned to my best critic and biggest supporter. I talked to my Mom.
How do Mom's do it? After talking it through with her I felt stronger and more determined than ever. This is just a setback. I may not be able to do this particular course, but there will be another course I can do that better suits my budget. It's not defeat, it's simply back to the drawing board. I suppose I have a tendency to catastrophize situations; here I was thinking my dream lay shattered into tiny splinters at my feet. My Mom simply bent down, picked up the pieces and rearranged them to make a slightly different picture, and I love her for that.
For this week's Weekly Wishes challenge I want to focus on something that will help redirect my mindset and emotional reactions and ultimately help me on my path to following my dream.
I've been teaching myself about the different chakras recently and I've learned some wonderful methods of opening the heart chakra which I think will benefit me in all aspects of my life.
This week I will challenge myself to apply the following methods to awaken my heart chakra because for me, to practise these in your daily life is to be a better, loving, and more accepting person...
~5 Ways to Open Your Heart Chakra~
1. Be love~ don't be a martyr, allow yourself to be loved, especially by yourself
2. Give love~ love others, love unconditionally and unselfishly and whether they are deserving of it or not
3. The grass isn't always greener~ like the quote says "comparison is the thief of joy", be happy with your lot
4. Practise yoga~ camel pose is a great one for clearing a blocked heart chakra
5. Forgive~ even if they are not sorry, let go of past anger, hurt, grief. Don't look back, you're not going that way.
I think that by trying my hardest to adhere to these pledges this week will definitely be a challenge, but it will help me to let go of certain things I don't need to carry any more and which may have been holding me back in my journey this far.
I'll be back next Monday to let you know how I got on.
If you read the first three words of the previous sentence and thought of Terminator then I love you and we should definitely be friends.